我想式式看用中文來寫篇文章。不知道要花多少時間才寫得完一段。哎。。。中文打得有夠慢！

在台灣的時間只剩不到一個禮拜了 時間過的還真快啊 兩個月前還在工作呢 那時還不知道我的人生要往哪一個方向走 well, 現在也還是不知道啦 不過至少有個one step forward的感覺。。。

forward到哪。。。這還是不太確定啦！

Damn, that took like 15 minutes to type. Can't get my thoughts out fast enough. I think if I ever want to write in Chinese, I'm going to have to jot all my ideas down first in English, so I don't forget anything.

So, I've been thinking (hah!). Every time I'm about to leave a place to move to another place, there's the feeling of excitement and anticipation. Inevitably, though, when I first arrive at the new place, there's a sense of dislike, discomfort because I'm no longer in familiar surroundings with friends or family around. It takes me months, years to adjust and get back to the comfortableness that makes me like a place. (The only place I can adjust to in days is Taiwan because I've always got my family here even if I don't have friends.) I think that's the most important part of me getting comfortable in a country - making friends. Not acquaintances or people you say hi to every so often, but real friends.

I feel like it used to be easier to make friends. Back when there was less inhibition, less thought of a need to please. I'm not sure if that's what it was, but it's just gotten a lot harder for me to meet new people. I personally dislike socializing because I don't know what to talk about, what to say, I'm afraid what they'll think of me, am I being annoying? Should I ask this question? Is it too personal? Yah, this is what goes on in my mind. And it's frustrating because then I just clam up and don't want to say anything. Why take the risk? But that's not the way to make friends. I know it. But, I can't turn these self-doubts off, and that gets in the way of friend-making. And affects my ability to adjust.

Why do I do this to myself? I could just stay in one place and not move around. But then I get this itch, this thought that it could be better elsewhere if I just gave it a try. The grass is always greener on the other side, huh?

I need to learn to settle down in one place. I can't keep moving around. I think I'm just too afraid of committing. I believe I have commitment issues. I seriously need to stop thinking that things will be better in other places because although going to new places is always a good experience, I don't think I can afford to keep moving around ... I have too much junk.

用中文來做個ending吧。又要當學生了 有點害怕可是又有點興奮！希望這次出國能讓我知道我以後要做什麼。不能在這樣沒方向的亂走了。不能在碰碰撞撞的過我的人生了。

i went to luxy and met this beat box dfoode

AND I REALLI NEED TO PEE.

the end.



.... And the next day after I've sobered up ....

So yes, we went clubbing last night (last time! I swear!) and boy was it empty. I guess no one wants to go clubbing on a Thursday, which is weird because back in the States Thursdays were the party nights. Anyway, it was good for us, even though a tad awkward in the beginning. But after you loosen up a bit with some alcohol in your system, the floor is yours! You can totally dance and not worry about whacking into people, except your own friends of course. :P So fun! And also, because there's so little people on Thursday night, I guess they try to get more people to go by offering 6 free drinks. SIX. That's the most I've ever seen. Dang, if I'd known this earlier, I'd totally go more often on a Thursday (provided I'm not working). Next summer, HEH HEH HEH.

Anyway, so although it was empty, it was kinda eventful too. After dancing for a few minutues (like 20), these two chicks approached Felicia and told her they were PRs for Luxy and wanted to offer us free drinks. So we went to the bar with them and realized it was a scam (kinda)! It was this guy who wanted to buy us drinks, but I think he just really wanted to hit on Jenny. But Jenny was kinda already unsteady on her feet (low alkie tolerance), so somehow we managed to get away. Phew! But that was kinda sketchy. After we got away, we noticed that the two girls had brought another girl over. Ehhhh. Weird.

So then we danced danced danced some more and the Luxy girls came on to dance and tried to get us to go up, but we declined. Then these Asian rappers from NY (or one of them was, forgot where the other two are from) started rapping. 'Twas interesting.

Then there was a surprise visit by the cops. It was interesting when the lights went up. You could see the peoples! And some guys were chatting it up with the cops. Haha. It's always fun to have a surprise visit by the cops, especially on a Thursday night when no one's ... really ... there ........ But yah, because of the visit, we got free beers from the bartender. Yay nice bartender.

Then we danced some more and realized it was getting late so then we left and went to Seven to get some fluids and instant noodle for Felicia. We were sitting outside Seven eating when one of the guys who was hanging outside started talking to us. He purported to be a promoter for Luxy, but we were kinda skeptical after the little wooha that happened inside. Although, as an after thought, it could be true because he seemed to know a lot of people in that area and was telling us about upcoming events (MIMS anybody? He'll be at Luxy on the 23rd I think. This is why I'm hot. I'm hot coz I'm fly, you ain't coz you're not!)

Anyway, then this guy comes along, and Mr. Luxy Promoter (I don't think we got his name) introduced him as one of Taiwan's best beatboxers. He did a little demo, and he was pretty good, I think. Ah, the memory's all muddled. I just remember thinking it was good. Mr. Luxy Promoter and friends left, leaving the poor guy to eat his sushi(?) alone. And I was like, hmmm, I wanna take a picture with him (coz he cute yo!). And we did, after my sister's like, 先生! 可以跟你照相嗎? (叫的還真老啊) So yes, there are pictures. But not on my camera as I did not bring it, so Felicia, don't forget to upload them!

So after picture taking (in which I look totally drunk and round and UGH - not good), us gaggle of girls (heh) just chatted with him. Turns out he's our age, had a girlfriend who was 32 (how did we get on that topic? Well, when h3e was trying to figure out our ages, we were like, ehhhh, we're kinda old, and he said we couldn't be older than his ex who was 32 .... and we were like, you'd be totally right!) ... I feel like we gleaned more information from him, but now I can't remember. And then I got his msn! hah, I wish I were as daring and bold when sober ... SIGH.

BUT. While I was getting his msn, these two (three?) foreigners who we'd saw at the club approached us and tried to hit on my sister. My sister went into Seven to throw away trash and one of them (the German) went in and wouldn't let her come back out! He was standing super close to her, too. Thankfully Felicia saw and was like, YOUR SISTER! and rushed in and saved the day. Phew, thanks Felish! But those two guys were weird. They thought we were trying to get guys because we went clubbing, even though we seriously just went to the club to dance. Why is that so hard to believe? Eh, sketchtastic man. Sketch.

So then we basically got outta there. The nice beatboxer doode (name's Lada) offered to give us a ride home, but we were like, eh, we live in different places far away. So nice though! Then I came home and passed out and woke up hungover like no other. I am never mixing alcohols again. Just sticking to hard liquor or beer, but not both. It's a bad idea ... I didn't even drink that much but I felt like serious POOPOO today. Sigh.

Anyway, the question now is, should I add Mr. Beatboxer doode to MSN? Now that I'm sober, it would just seem kinda weird to add him. I mean, what would I say? Or should I just add and not message him?

Watcha guys think?!

While typing the title, I nearly typed new thongs ... =.= But ick, I don't wear thongs. They're like permanent wedgies. How does that even feel remotely comfortable?

Moving on. So departure time is fast approaching. Have to buy all the things I think I need or don't need, but want in these next few days, and also eat tons and tons of food. I can't believe it's nearly time to leave! Ahhh!

So what've I bought?

- Skirts, plenty of skirts. This is mainly for Taiwan, though, because it's just so hot here I can no longer stand to wear pants.

- Jeans - for Belgium because my mom says it's not that hot there, so less chances to wear skirts.

- Shoes. Besides the pumps and sandals I bought last time, I also got a Converse (thanks Picker!) and these cute heels that are really cute. I love shoes!

- Digicam - I really wanted a DSLR, but realized there's really no point in me getting it now because 1) I can't bear to drop that kind of money, 2) it'd be another thing I have to worry about getting stolen while in Belgium, and 3) not sure if I'll actually get the chance to use it much. So I went to the Electronics exhibition and bought myself a Fujifilm FinePix F100fd. It's pretty. And it's nice. It's also one of the better ones, according to the reviews my cousin read. So, I'm prepared to take tons of pics while in Belgium and maybe Europe in general if I get to travel around.


- New battery for the MBP because this one is dead. It lasts maybe 5 minutes.

Can you tell I've spent a lot of money? Yup, I certainly can.

Last thing: Plug! Check it out!

Last last thing: I've started drawing again. On sticker. I'm thinking of going around and sticking them in random places and taking pictures. So we'll see how that goes. Going to have to do it at night, though. Hah!