3 years ago
I've been meaning to update, I swear! It's just that my lunch time updates got interrupted by my Google Reader calling me to read the RSS feeds I've subscribed to. I haven't had the chance to read for a couple of day, so there were 1000+ entries to catch up on. I'm down to 800-some. :P So behind on the news. I'm like living three days in the past. TEEHEE.
Anyway, ever been on a motorcycle in the pouring rain? I have. And it's not fun. My shoes got soaked, and they're still wet. It's been four days. May is rainy season in Taiwan, so I guess I'll have to get used to having wet feet at work for a while. =( I hate rain. It makes everything less convenient and makes me gloomy and depressed. I wonder if I have SAD. Well, not like it affects me living my life, so I guess it's not a disorder yet.
Having problems sleeping at night because I feel so guilty that I have to quit work already when I haven't even been here for a year. >.< Ahhhhhh. I feel like such a bad person. As usual, I wish I didn't have a conscience. Then I could just live my life not caring about what other people think. Although there are probably lots of negatives to not having a conscience, some times I think having too much of a conscience is a bad thing. It hinders you from getting a good night's sleep ... a lot. But I have this opportunity to go out and study masters, so I should take it, right? And this job isn't what I want to spend the rest of my life doing, right? So I should just take what I'm given and go with it, right? RIGHT?!
Argh, I never know if I'm doing the right thing, or if i'll end up regretting the decisions I make. I hate this unknowingness ... It makes me unsettled, and I'd much rather like to be settled.
On another note, I have a needle hole in my arm (drugs! jk) from my health checkup today. They had to suck some blood outta me. >.< I hate needles. I hate I hate. At least I now know I am 159 cm. Just one cm away from 160. AHHHH. so close, yet so far. :P
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