Favorite past time of my family - mahjong. Today was no exception, and I was pretty bored, so ..... I took pics. :) Here's one.

So ever since I got my new camera, I've been carrying it around with me and taking pictures of whatever I think is ... cool. Mostly it's been of my aunt's dog, Nike, but also some street/random pictures of scenes that I come across. Anyway, so I've decided to try and do a picture a day (which means one entry a day! woo!). We'll start with today (click for larger, but way blurrier picture):



We were at Ximenting, waiting for The Dark Knight to start (yes, I finally watched it! And the Joker totally freaked me out!), and we saw this guy performing with fire. It was interesting, and he was good. I wish I got his name, but eh, I got a ton of pictures, most of which didn't turn out well because he moves a lot, and it's hard to capture movement well (at least for me). And that is why, his face is a blur. Sigh. Fail! Also because most of the time his back was to us, so I couldn't really get a good picture. However, I did get a picture WITH him, and that picture is on facebook. :)

Here's a video -

I feel like whenever something happens to my friends, good or bad, it makes me start introspecting. I think it's because I take things with me for a little while (until I forget it ... =.=). I wonder to myself, what could I have said to make the person feel better (if it was bad news), or am I being a good enough friend?

I kinda lost one friend once upon a time because I wasn't really there for her when she needed me, mainly because I didn't think she needed me (stupid). Now I'm scared of making the same mistake, and I keep thinking about the conversations I just had with friends, especially when it wasn't a happy conversation.

(For my friends and family, I suck at consoling and here's an apology in advance. Especially when it comes to my family and friends, I lose my head easily. I panic, I don't know what to do, what to say. I just want the pain and sadness to go away for you guys, but I don't know how to go about it. Just sitting there and saying "uh huh" seems so heartless. But then, offering advice seems pointless and could be potentially damaging. So I do my best, in whatever way I know best. Anyway, just a heads up?)

And that leads me to think about other things in life. And it doesn't help when you just had a conversation with your dad about your future (or lack of one). Why is it so hard for me to have a dream? Or to figure out what you want to do? It seems so easy for everyone else - get married, have kids, be a doctor, a designer, a lawyer. Why can't I find an occupation that suits me?

Or it's more like I kinda know what I want to do, but I don't know how to go about achieving it because my past few years of education hasn't been in that direction. And I don't feel like I'm good enough to do it.

I feel like I know how to do a lot of basic things, but I'm not good at any one specific thing; good enough to make a living off of it.

I want to draw, but I can't draw realistic things. I'm limited in what I can actually produce.

I want to do graphic design, but I don't know jack about it.

I want to learn to tattoo, but where can I actually learn the skills required? And would I be good at it? (And I don't think my parents would actually let me do it.)

I want to be a photographer! But the pictures I take are just 普通 (normal), nothing special.

Ugh. So now what? Sigh.