I feel like the title's grammar is a bit off; today implies the present, so I should be using the present version of the to be verb, yet I'm using the past-tense version. I feel like today's already over even though there's still two more hours till the end of "today." I guess "today" is a pretty subjective word - my today and the standard definition of today (as in this present day, not this present time) are two different things. And if you take it to mean this present time, then that's even more subjective. My view of the present time could end tomorrow, while my friend's view could end in 10 years. So then, when tomorrow comes, do I use the present or past tense when referring to "today"? However, I'm talking about Christmas, so I guess I'm not really referring to the today of present times. Ahhh, I'm not making any sense.

It's just that it doesn't really feel like Christmas. This Christmas is the first one in the past four years that I didn't 1) spend with my parents, 2) have the day off, and 3) have to worry about winter vacation ending soon. That's because I spent Christmas Eve and Day at the office, working (where my freaking pc crashed again so I had to redo everything because I'm stupid and don't save every 5 minutes), so I don't have to worry about the end of vacation since I don't have one. I guess it shouldn't really matter that much because we don't really celebrate Christmas. I think it's just the thought that everyone else is either on vacation or getting the day off that gets to me and makes me a tad bitter. Which totally defeats the purpose of Christmas - isn't it supposed to be a joyous, happy- and gift-filled holiday?

And besides, I had a nice Christmas Eve dinner with my sister and her college friends (where are my friends? ... I have none in this city.). It was a dinner filled with laughter and good food, but sometimes, even with all that merriment surrounding you, you can't help but feel a bit lonely.

Things are different now. I kinda wish I could return to the good old days, be it high school, college, or even earlier. However, alas, we cannot turn back the hands of time, and all we can do is live in our todays toward our tomorrows, whatever, whenever that may be.

So we come to the point of the entry (I really didn't mean to sound all depressing and self-pitying; I'm just tired and I actually had to do a little homework for work. Boo!):

Merry belated Christmas! Hope everyone is well and had a much better Christmas than me. :)

Picture from Wretch/Cwwany.